紫嫣自娱 Da Purple Gypsy

my habits of not posting blogs .....hahahaha

2010-09-18T10:52:00.000-07:00

i know i have neglected this blog like for ages .....

i find that it is hard for me to keep the habit of updating blog post frequently....

the original purpose to put of this blog is because i wanna write down my feelings, my opinion toward things n you know ..... stuff....

part of the reason is i am lazy bah.....

but i guess my life is too damm boring until i have nothing worthy for me to post it....

this is too darn pathetic....i know ....

so , i try to spice up my life a little with a new gadget....

but unfortunately the new gadget is still in other ppls hand....

hope i can get it soon enuf....

any hows, stay tune ....

will update the post once i got the gadget....kekekekeke

搬家记

2010-01-10T00:11:00.000-08:00

终于搬了~

从一个像桃花源的新村，搬进靠近学校的廉价屋，

房间比新村屋小，房租却比新村屋贵一半。

终于下定决心要搬。

其实也是有点舍不得，毕竟住了一年多，跟邻居们也混得很熟了。

又有一大班的狗~~

“ hak hak, kiwi , mary , ah wang, January".......再见了。

可是汽油消耗量太大了，唯有向现实低头，搬去较靠近学校的地方。

搬家的当儿，看着一大堆的杂物，无从下手。

整理了才发现原来自己收收埋埋了很多有的没的。

全都是丢又不是，收又不是的”鸡筋“ ，最后还是眼睛一闭，把心一横，统统丢进垃圾桶。

搬家当天，发觉原来自己是有搬运工人的天份~~~O(∩_∩)O哈哈~

我那可怜的Proton Iswara 来来回回跑了十几趟（其中两趟是丢垃圾，满满一车的垃圾。）

搞不好，以后找不到工作可以投入运输业~

忙着把东西收拾好，

忙着把东西搬运掉，

忙着把东西排放好。

搬屋子就是这么一个流程，可是我却遇上了我的克星， “灰尘”！！！！

到了今天，鼻子还是一直留着鼻水，

打喷嚏打到我头晕晕~~

搬家这玩意儿，还是让壮男去做，

我在旁边做个娇弱女生，然后乘凉就好了。

不过我是没娇弱女生的命，答应出现帮忙的人到最后没出现，

只好巾帼不让须眉，自己来搬~~

不过也幸好，到最后应该是某位路过神灵/菩萨听到了我心中的无奈与呐喊，

进而赐我一位骨干男来供我使用。

那么，搬家活动终于圆满结束。

也谢谢那位骨干男毫无条件自动请缨来帮忙，我会报答你的。

现在嘛，要拿两团厕纸来塞鼻子了......快要流鼻水流到缺水了@_@lll

夜晚

2009-10-25T10:32:00.000-07:00

夜已深...

轻轻把窗帘卷起，

丝丝的凉气从窗外悄悄溜入我的房间....

为稍微焗焖的房间注入凉气.....

蛙鸣虫叫声在这幽静的夜晚显得额外清晰....

街灯努力地履行责任，为暗黑的马路带来些许的光亮.....

我，

静悄悄地享受这夜深人静....

夜晚不曾属于我....

我却执意把夜晚留在我心中。

People....this is way over！！

2009-10-19T21:03:00.000-07:00

When I saw this on my facebook status update, my jaw dropped wide open!!

I cant believe there is ppl really take these facebook applications so seriously~

the last phrase ..."i WILL DELETE u from my friend list "..super dramatic !!

Dude, it's just a game ,go get a life …..

Untitled (Another emo post)

2009-07-21T21:50:00.000-07:00

Recently , i have this feeling ....
My life is heading no where ....
No point , no direction .....
Dunno what to do ....

Arghhhhh~~~~~

Felt that everything is collapsing all over me ...
Maybe i am just being over exaggerate ...
Maybe what i am facing now is just a small matter .....
But the more i look at the matter , the more i wanna run away from it ....
Hide , duck , run ,dodge ....whatever will do....
Felt that i achieve nothing in my life, other than being an average citizen to my country, average daughter to my parents.....
Really confuse now ...
>_<

another night out

2009-06-26T23:59:00.000-07:00

i have been quite slow in updating this blog....hehe, been MIA for a while ...

anyhow, last night was another night out with me friend, M. She ask me out to have some drink in the pub in town. Honestly, i dunno whether that place can consider as pub, but...hmph... this is the one of the "consider ok" place you can find in KT.
Along also with some guy friends of M, one of them is which M have tried so hard to couple up me with him. I do find this particular guy, J is cute. i like when he smiles ......

i have gave out all the signals and green lights , yet he seems to be lack of response that i expected to have .....
well, i guess he is not into me gua.....
but M kept on insisting that he is too shy ..... i need to take more action ....
if i knew the guy is into me but too shy to admit ...mayb i will act more ....
yet to me he seems lack of interest in me .....
mayb i a m not his cup of tea....
but obviously he is mine cup of tea....haha
aiya too bad la like this ......
not much i can do ler...*bummer*

back to last night ending.....
i end up drunk ..
due to lacking skills in playing the "liar dice" game or whatever it is called (usually appear in those hongkee movies ), i kept on losing n the penalty was taking in carlsberg of course.
but this time i am lucky that the guys send me back instead i drive back myself like last time.
last time i was tipsy then i drove back home safely , this time i was drunk.....
M insisted to send me back, escorted by the guys....hahaha.....
But luckily i don get any hangover this morning, thanks to the "good gene” that i inherited from my father. In the Tan family , almost all of the family members are resistance to alcohol (except for some recessive gene expression in some individuals like me sister..hehe).
I'll try not to get drunk again next time .hehe......

这句话是对我说的吗？

2009-05-19T18:57:00.000-07:00

通常我们看戏的时候，
都会出现一下场面.....
A男：“ 你是真的喜欢她还是想要得到她的身体？”
B男：“ 我是绝对认真的。你要相信我！” （认真眼神闪烁中）

.......

结果呢.....
以上无聊情景就发生在我身上，很不幸的，
我是扮演B男的角色, 而朋友M就是发问问题的那位。

是啦，我不否认最近本小姐对某人垂涎三尺，
每次某人一出现，我就会发花痴似的口水留个满地，仿佛非得把那个某人吞进肚子里方才罢休。
我这个自认吃人不吐骨的魔女，还是保持少许的少女矜持情怀，对某人始终只敢远观，到现在也不敢亵玩。结果尚未出手，就被人质疑个盘满钵满，难道我的形象真的如此不堪，（自作孽不可活+_+），我已经沦落到被人这样质疑......(呼天抢地式的无奈)

一句话来形容
“抬头无语问苍天”

P/S: 后记，我刚发现原来某人是超级长气公，我应当是猪油蒙了眼才会对此人流口水，回家拿绿柚叶水洗眼去也。

犯糊涂

2009-04-04T11:34:00.000-07:00

我的心犯糊涂了
我正处在进退维谷之间，
往前就是那令人万劫不复的陷阱，
往后我却害怕会失去这份虚假的希望，
明明一再告诫自己，
不应该往那身前的陷阱望去，
可是我忍不住那股盼望。
明明应该转身掉头就离开，
可是我却放任自己在那维谷里进退两难。
这次犯糊涂的病真的是病的不轻，
我还有药救吗？

自言自语--紫嫣自娱

2009-04-03T07:46:00.000-07:00

自言自语是我从小就会有的一个小习惯。
平时独自一人时，我都会和自己说话，把自己的思绪整理清楚。
偶尔，想起一些好笑的回忆或笑话时，我就会自顾自的笑起来。
这些异于常人的表现都会让身边的友人深感讶异，不过，久而久之他们就会习以为常，见怪不怪了。请相信我，我真的不是神经病的=.=

为自己取名为紫嫣其实是蛮随机的，皆因我在玩某线上游戏是为自己的角色取的一个名字。但是这个名字却如影随形跟着道现在。直到有一天某网友指出说： “ 紫嫣跟你的英文名很像，是翻译的吧？” ，那时我才惊觉原来紫嫣这个名字是那么一个无心的巧合。

在这个部落格里，我写下我的感想，我写下我的记忆，标点符号，华语英文，随心所欲。姑且让我这个魔女在这里自言自语兼自娱吧。

Salvation -赎罪

2009-03-11T20:38:00.000-07:00

他是我心目中的童话
我却亲手摧毁了这个童话
无论我如何漂白
我的手还是沾满血迹
我还是带着杀手的罪恶
身处在罪恶的深渊
行尸走肉得挣扎
日复一日望着那遥远的光芒
不知何时才是我的救赎

He was once my fairy tale
yet, i shattered it into pieces
no matter how hard i tried to purify my soul
my hands are still covered with bloodstains
i still carries the guilt of a killer
fallen into the deep abyss of unforgiven soul
lifeless struggle is the only thing i can do
staring at the distant dim light
waiting with uncertainty, for my salvation

p/s: i wrote the Chinese version first with passion , then when i tried to translate it into English, i felt the pain(my English is just too poor ) .... eni-hawwws..... , this is the best i can do . hehe

摩羯座

2009-03-04T01:03:00.001-08:00

话说某天，我在网上逛的时候，看到了这段文，

年轻的魔羯都是很单纯的，我想他们也不会知道自己将从天使变成恶魔，魔羯座的人天生善良，感情也都很脆弱，也许会因为一些很小的事情难过很长时间，所以他们通常在表面表现的酷酷的与事隔离的样子，其实他们只是不希望让别人看到他脆弱的一面，坚强，理智，承受是魔羯的代名词，他们并不是很随便的表达自己所想，他们希望了解身边所有人的性格，并不是因为好奇，好象只是因为一种安全感，为了保护自己魔羯生出了一种特殊能力。

形容得很贴切，我就是这样的人。
现在的我已经不是以前单纯的我。
身为摩羯座的我，以上是我的特点。
现在的我已经不是以前单纯的我。
我是入了魔道的女巫，拥有恶魔的特质。
你，不要离我太近，小心我把你吃了。
魔女总是吃人不吐骨头的。

叹《江南》

2009-02-23T06:27:00.000-08:00

风到这里就思念粘住过客的思念
雨到了这里粘成线
缠着我们留恋人世间
你在身边就是缘缘分写在三寸石上面
爱有万分之一天宁愿我就葬在这一天
圈圈园园圈圈
甜甜粘粘甜甜的我深深看你的脸
想起的温柔满脸的温柔的脸
不懂爱恨情仇颠倒的我们
都以为相爱就像风云的善变
相信那一天抵过永远
在这一刹那冻结那时间
不懂怎么表现温柔的我们
还以为殉情只是古老的传言
你走得有多痛痛有多浓
当梦被埋在江南烟雨中心碎了才懂

圈圈园园圈圈
甜甜粘粘甜甜的我深深看你的脸
想起的温柔满脸的温柔的脸
不懂爱恨情仇颠倒的我们
都以为相爱就像风云的善变
相信那一天抵过永远
在这一刹那冻结那时间
不懂怎么表现温柔的我们
还以为殉情只是古老的传言
你走得有多痛痛有多浓
当梦被埋在江南烟雨中心碎了才懂

相信那一天抵过永远
在这一刹那冻结那时间
不懂怎么表现温柔的我们
还以为殉情只是古老的传言
你走得有多痛痛有多浓
当梦被埋在江南烟雨中心碎了才懂
林俊杰《江南》

本人一向来都不是很欣赏林俊杰，总是觉得他娘娘腔的，很惹我讨厌。
可是唯独《江南》这首曲子，让我听了很有感觉。
每一次听，心里都会有一种莫名其妙的心酸。
仿佛为逝去的恋情哀悼，为一段已经不能挽回的感情感到心酸。
我已经忘记了如何认认真真去爱一个人，爱情对现在的我而言是一种奢侈品。
我把我的心遗失了，遗失在某个人的身上。
因此我失忆了，忘了爱的感觉，失去了爱的能力。
可是这首曲子总能唤回我的伤感，对那份失去的伤感。
歌词里讲的故事，就好像在讲着我的故事，
那个关于我和他的故事。
我想，写词人或许也和我一样，有着相似的经历，
又或者我自己一厢情愿，把自己的故事代入这首歌里面。
故事当中的是是非非，就像过眼云烟，不复存在，可是那感觉依然在。
到了今时今日，那个故事已成了我的遗憾，
所以每次听到这首歌时，心里中会浮起那不能压抑的心酸。
久久都不能释怀.......

mind my language

2009-02-18T05:52:00.000-08:00

From the moment i was born in Malaysia ,
i was destined to learn multiple language in my life.

First, i were expose to Cantonese , it is my "mother-tongue".
In this case, mother tongue is where the dialect my mother speaks ,
my father speaks hokkien, but he did not taught me that(which i learned it later from my Uni friends, but until now i still have these weird Canton tone in it that will make my hokkien friend laugh till their face turn blue ) and speaks Cantonese to me instead.

Then , my schooling time.
Since i am a Chinese, eventually i end up in Chinese school.
Then i am taught to speak three language, Chinese, English and Malay.
Now, i know these three languages well, yet not well enough to claim master in any of these language.....

Thnks to the donkey Ministry of Education that kept on changing the policies, using the students as lab rats.....implementing stupid policies on the students.....

At first, they said Malay is the national language, should put main focus on it, change everything into Malay.

Then later the donkeys found out that "some" students cannot even speak a complete english sentence, does not know how to count and too dumb to understand science, so then they change the math and science back into english, claiming the dumbness is caused by the insufficient use of english.
(WTFness in this!!?? why do we let donkeys to become the policy makers, does that mean we are donkeys too??)

When i started this blog, it occurred to me that which language i should use to publish my blog entries.........cuz, sometimes there are certain stuff that only i can express using certain language ermm......this is kinda hard to explain ....
never mind , I'll stop explaining.
this is my blog, i do whatever i want .

BTW, thanks to the multiple language education, makes me speak multiple language ....simultaneously .
Behold.....the following sentence came out of my mouth last week ......

me : " See , the cicak sai is every where lah !"

cicak= lizard in malay
sai = shit in hokkien

i think this is the fun part being a Malaysian chinese .......u can speak atleast 2-3 language.

没有一丝意乱情迷

2009-02-10T10:44:00.001-08:00

轻轻的把纽扣解开，
慢慢得把面具退下，
悄悄地在耳边呻吟。

一切进行的那么理所当然，
很理所当然地在你身下婉转承欢，
很理所当然地享受那不见得光的刺激。

当一切激情结束后,
理智回归原点，
没有一丝的意乱情迷。

新的阶段。

2009-02-04T09:19:00.000-08:00

突然间发现，自己的生命已经进入一个新的阶段。
今年的十二月，我就会满二十五岁。
回首一望，到目前为止，我发觉我的人生已经走了一大段，
更发现原来我一点成就都没有。
如果躲在象牙塔里读书，读了二十几年是一种成就的话，
那么现在的我是死够力成功的了！！
很纳闷，为什么自己会沦落到今天这样的一个地步？
更纳闷的是，我竟然有了要做妈妈的准备。
我有了想要嫁人的思想。
天啊！？
结婚对以前的我而言，是天方夜谭，不可能发生的事情。
然而，现在在荷尔蒙作祟之下，我的心理状况有了改变。

我.........想找个人来结婚......

Funny signs

2008-11-25T08:46:00.000-08:00

Okayyy.....it really got it's point, we do wanna "hidup lama"
hehe....

我系唔系福建人？

2008-11-23T08:28:00.000-08:00

自细，我daddy 就同我讲， “你系福建人来嘎！”
但系我一D都唔明，点解我连一句福建话都唔识讲。
妈妈系广东人，由我识讲嘢开始，我都系讲广东话。
伊家入咗大学，同朋友学讲福建话，都会有好浓嘅广东音。
换句话来讲，我嘅福建话系歪音，同学听到都会笑到碌地。
最记得有一次，我话： “ wa e dua goh 很会做包子。”
朋友就回答：“ 你有大哥的咩？”
我用华语讲：“ 是大姑，不是大哥。”
结果，因为咁就俾我朋友笑到我面黄。
真系惨。+_+

其实，唔理我系福建人定系广东人，
我都会以身为华人，识讲华语而感到骄傲。

真的很不知所措.....

2008-11-22T10:15:00.000-08:00

答应了老板星期一把progress report 交给他看....
结果我坐在电脑前对这着一堆数字大眼瞪小眼，根本无从下手。

天啊，我要怎么办？

在这样下去，我不用旨意想毕业！！
我选择了这条路，我却没有足够坚定的一直走下去。
难道当初我选择度硕士是错的？
顶~~~
真的很想开口爆粗了！
@#%&￥@#￥@￥%
-__-lll

Compliment

2008-07-02T19:30:00.000-07:00

" I am in the mood to love" i said suddenly ,
"huh? in love with who " C asked, confused
" i donno, just find some one to love maybe ......just some guy"
The trees outside the car was going backwards,
" then what happen when u don have the mood ?" C asked carefully,
" err, i leave. " replied with some uncertainty
" whoaa, i feel pity for that guy ...."
" well, that's me. i know it'll come back to me some day , karma. but neber mind la "

" you are such a bitch..." C said
" thank you , i take it as a compliment "
i smiled :)

Today is a special day

2008-06-19T01:25:00.000-07:00

today is a very special day
one of the reason is because ......
it is the "SUMMER SOLSTICE"
(*pls google it if u don know the meaning of summer solstice)

another reason.....

i started my new blog !!
hahahaha.....

that's all for now.
back to work .